May 26, 2004
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May 24, 2004
Wolf
For my friends at work and in the D.A.s office, Mike, Cara, Taleen...
And for the innocent victims.
The rush of the faces passing by
Armies of the night
Street talking and planning
Watching for the next wide eyed fuck to stroll by
Hands deep in pockets
Clutching knives guns whatever
They smell the lambs like cooking meat
An enticing odor that reeks of dollar bills and cocaine too
They know the taste of fear
When they tear it from the throat of innocents
I see them dancing in shadow
Waiting and watching
Laughing and lying
Devil's own
They stand
She's just a visitor here
Safe in the clutch of tourism that blankets the area like soot
She pauses in neon glow and heads into one of the funhouses
That line Las Vegas Downtown, rows of gap toothed clown faces
Enticing the feverish inside, inside
She heads for safe haven to all
The Bathroom
A place to pause collect thoughts and be human
When suddenly the overhead lights are dimmed
By the silhouette of a wolf
Red eyed and snarling he rips the door from the hinges
Fists fall in constant succession
Taps on a casket lid heard in the bleakness of hopelessness
Blood paints and swirls and outlines the area like tiny roses
Wolf runs with her ninety bucks and buys more crack
As she moans on the hard marble of the fancy room
Can my armor be thicker now
Can I still taste freedom and believe that it will all be ok
Can I dance with my children and not look back toward the abyss always beckoning and filled with capering madmen
No
No I can't.
Well I must.
Dance and dance and dance and don’t ever look back.
Copyright 2004 Harry R. Fagel ARR
May 11, 2004
Blessing
Blessing
The light sometimes just brightens
A subtle thing you hardly notice
And suddenly you realize
That life is a gift
Every great moment lifts us
Every great laugh saves us
Every great love brings us
Forward
My mortality is as real as yours
Hammered out in G-ds notebook
Date time and manner I'm sure
Until then I want to feel the warmth
Of 10 thousand more sunrises
Caressing me and enveloping me
I can't stay in the darkness
Not with these joys surrounding me
My Wife
Sons
Family
Friends
What blessings I know
Every so often a person gives the world something
That all of us can understand
That all of us can believe in
I want to give that too
I want to share this heart I carry
Give it away
Give it away
Give it away
Until it's bigger than me
Bigger than everything
Just a giant beating flower
Thrumming out a rhythm of love
This I can do
This I will do
This I must do
I swear to try
Until my last breath flees me
Until my soul escapes this fragile vessel
I will try to touch...
You
For my Dad....Love Harry 2004
May 07, 2004
Jimmys Lament
For James Y.
This cesspool I call home
Angels burning and falling daily
Wings curled and blackened like crows
Hitting the hot sidewalk with meaty crashes
I see endless lines of insane
Each a hollow ghost waiting for 15 minutes or less of infamy
I gotta ask myself at times
How do I do it
Stand knee deep in the rage and sadness that bubbles up
Endlessly from crack revenge to rape lust
Could be it's the satsisfaction
Garnished from the heavy clang of doors locking behind the deserved
Could be it's the rush
Felt like no other when all is on the line and life is clicking by in miliseconds
Could be I got no choice
Picked for this I just keep gluing the parts back together
And watch them seperate and crumple
It's a puzzle with at least one missing piece
Always
Yet on I go
Nose to nose with madmen and liars
Smiling through it all
Keeping it simple
Lest I figure it out someday and the boredom kills me where I stand
Copyright 2004 by Harry R. Fagel
